i go and read all these things on Tumblr about how things go good with a guy then you drift then blah blah blah break up. thats how i know that i found the one i think. we may have broken up numberous times. but we have never honestly drifted apart. even when were not together we still kinda talk like we are then we tell eachother how stupid we are for doing it. but we never have honestly drifted. we actually seem to get closer. because when we are gone for that amount of time we realize how much we mean to eachother and how much we love eachother. its such a complicated thing to explain but all i could really say is, i love this boy with ever part of my being. Mind, body, soul, and heart. Hes my baby, my everything. i try and try to see if i could be without him, not because i want to be but if it isnt possible then maybe it wasnt ment to be for us to be apart and it was ment to be for us.. i dont know. but what i do, is that i wanna marry this boy. i wanna spend the rest of my life with him. nothing could beat the feelings that he gives me. i feel like ive found a home for once. somewhere i belong. and ive never found that. but when i look into his eyes and im laying in his arms ive never felt so alive, so free, so at home. i never want to loose him. i promise till the end of my time i will never give up baby. i love you Josh Mckendrick Newport <3
